Inside Thoughts: an evolution

Being the neophyte blogger that I am, I am still exploring & getting to know myself as a putting-myself-out-there-blogger (not something I do very comfortably in my outside life).  I'm noticing now, that this breath-of-fresh-air outlet of mine is taking on a personality of it's own; instead of me telling this blog what I want it to be, my inside thoughts & this blog are evolving into something I don't yet know.  I had originally intended for this blog to be about me & Ehlers Danlos Syndrome; however, I don't let EDS rule my life outside, and so it seems unnatural for it to be the rule of my blog.  EDS is apart of me, and I am apart of it; mathematically, one part of something is just that, and it can't be made whole until all the parts are put together.  My experiences with EDS are important to who I have become; they are part of what have given me a view of life that I feel many people don't have.  If I am truly honest, while I wish my body would just let me LIVE my days without so much struggle, I am thankful for this life-perspective. It's a tangible carpe diem that screams daily into most of my subluxating & dislocating joints, my unpredictable heart rate, body temperature & struggling body.  It is this that helps keep me from disappearing in fear, but instead standing firmly to hold a hand who's most precious loved one is dying, feeling as honored to be there with them as it is to be holding another's hand as they give birth.  It is this perspective that makes me want to experience every moment in between, the good & the bad to it's fullest so that when my time comes I can confidently kiss the world good-bye knowing that I have been good n' loved by those in my life and that they have been good n' loved by me.  
Thus the blog's name change; it fits better to what this blog has become, or perhaps was since my first post.  I am not writing to gain readers, though seeing that it is being read certainly makes me smile :) , I'm writing it for the exact reason above- to let my inside thoughts play.  My inside thoughts use commas too often & they love run-on-hyphenated-sentences.  My inside thoughts love word pictures, silly/punny jokes, and they are not consistently eloquent- if ever.  They are just mine, and they are here.  :)